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Week 37 – I bought a new amp for my violin




Week 33 – An Antique Shop


Week 31 – Essential Oils



Week 30 – Chinese Words


I saw this at one of the subway station in Hong Kong. The word filial attracted my attention.

Week 27 – Lotus Flower


“The lotus flower blooms most beautifully from the deepest mud” – Buddhist Proverb

In the Buddhist tradition, the flower that rises above the muddy waters represents the act of ascending above all desires and attachments. According to Buddhism, this is the key to achieving spiritual enlightenment. Despite the flower having its roots in the mud, it grows upward in the direction of light. This is believed to represent the aspiration to rise above and move towards light. The lotus, therefore, symbolizes the journey from darkness (as depicted by the muddy pond) to the light of knowledge or wisdom.

Photo taken in the Leal Senado Square, by me.


Week 26 – Have a wonderful day


Week 21 – Orphans in Africa

The Amitofo Care Centre (ACC) – which comprises of an administration centre, children’s dormitories, youth dormitories, preparatory school, kindergarten, library, activity centre, medical centre, vocational training centre, religious centre, CBO etc – is founded and directed by Buddhist clergy from the East with an aspiration and mission to directly rear and care for orphans of Africa within the humanitarian and educational umbrella. The main principles of ACC are based on local African culture, Chinese culture and Buddhist philosophy which are given to the orphans in need. This is considered a unique and remarkable characteristic of ACC although it must be stressed that none of the orphans have taken refuge to Buddhism, as we respect their religious freedom and will allow them to choose their own religions as they enter adulthood.

After an arduous ten years ACC’s caring programme has spread from one location to a number of African countries benefiting thousands of children and adults alike. ACC’s compassionate and philanthropic foot-prints have been left not only in South Africa but also in Swaziland, Burkina Faso, Chad, Gambia, Sao Tome and Principe, Nigeria, Malawi, Zambia, Zimbabwe, Cameroon, etc. as well as Taiwan, Hong Kong, Mainland China, Singapore, Malaysia and several South American countries as St. Vincent and the Grenadines. The total orphans that ACC has adopted to date number around 3000.

The current ACC is in association with three charity institutes namely; the Yuan Tong Culture and Care Association (R.O.C.) , Pu-Hsein Educational Foundation of Taiwan and the Amitofo Charity Association in South Africa that continuously organize and manage ACC operations along with financial support.

Venerable Hui Li, born in Taiwan and tagged as the ‘African monk’, founded ACC specifically for African orphans in the early 90’s and is still the residing chairperson. With his enthusiasm and big heart to bring love and care to the orphans

Ven. Hui Li has been awarded the “Loving of Life” medal by the Chou Ta-Kuan Foundation of Taiwan. He has also been invited by a number of First Ladies of certain African countries. Some of whom refer to him as the Buddhist Albert Sweitzer in praise of his significance and contributions thus far. Nowadays ACC, and Ven. Hui Li, is widely recognized as an international charity and educational institute and sponsored by numerous people in Asia.


The concept of ACC is based on a “Big Family” or “Children’s Village” idea. A group of 16-20 children are put together like a family with one nanny, one ‘mommy’, and one child-care teacher who all live under one roof. These adults are responsible for managing the home and taking care of the children. Twelve families will form a “Village” that provides a domestic atmosphere so that the orphans may experience the warmth of family. Consequently they may experience a social life, interacting with each other as well as learning the responsibility and obligations a resident ought to undertake.


At present the Head Quarters of ACC, the Amitofo Charity Association, is located in South Africa. The ACC in Blantyre, Malawi, is in the process of building a staff dormitory and the Yuan Tong elementary school while in Lilongwe, Malawi, plans are being set up with regards to construction. The ACC in Harare, Zimbabwe, is undergoing phase one of its construction of 30 buildings expected to be completed by the end of the year. In Swaziland and Lesotho construction began in October 2008 with ambitions to start providing shelter for orphans in those regions after one year or so of construction.



Week 20 – Care Without Boundaries

Week 13 – Misty

IMG_7009The humidity level was high at that day.

Week 8 – Madonna Rebel Heart in Macau

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There were songs that my father used to like to listen to while babysitting me. Among them were Madonna’s songs. That made me how I used to like Madonna very much when I was a little girl. I used to decor my bedroom with Madonna posters and listen to her songs frequently, and I sometimes (my mom told me that later) even brought her picture along with me when my  parents take me out to play. I once asked my mother to take me to salon to make my hair look like Madonna’s hairstyle. I can’t believe that my mother approved that and really took me to salon to fulfill my little wish. Now, when I think back, it was lucky that she only approved me curling my hair but not dying it to blonde. Otherwise, I would be looked too funny. Heehee. Those were childhood days…It seemed that I was her fan in long time ago.

Today, Madonna is here! She is performing live in Macau! This is a chance to see her live show. How could I miss it? I must go! I must go to the concert! Although I don’t have that “fan” feeling anymore, but it would be nice to take this chance to see her live concert. Right?

Week 7 – Welcome My Girlfriends



I invited my babies girlfriends to come over for dinner during Chinese New Year. I challenged myself to cook 13 dishes for them. In consequences, it took me 10 hours to prepare and to cook. It was awesome and I find myself enjoy cooking.IMG_6204IMG_6197

Week 5 – Handmade Presents I made

IMG_5823IMG_5822IMG_5821I accidentally found this gift box. It was a Valentines handmade present that I made to my husband, when he was my boyfriend, 13 years ago. A hand glove and two stuff animals. Can you tell what animal they look like.:D

Week 50 – Earth and Sky Stargazing Tour Tekapo

Make sure you have extra nights at Lake Tekapo, because the tour could be cancelled due to bad weather. If the tour is cancelled, no worry, as they offer full refund or transfer the tour to other possible nights as long as you are in Tekapo. We, initially, booked Nov 23, but that night it was windy, vehicles were not allowed to climb up Mt. John for safety reasons. So, we were being transferred to other tour on Nov 24. The night sky of that night was not something I had expected. The moon was too bright, bright enough to block out many stars. If I had avoided the moon period, I believed the sky view would look so much different. But, on the other hand, the tour was great! The tour guides are very friendly, informative and knowledgeable. They taught us how to locate stars, and show us stars and clusters through big telescope. Also, if you bring a camera with you, you can hand it to their photographer, Chris, and he will help you to take fantastic photos of the night sky with your camera (a DSLR camera is recommended, that’s only my opinion). Moreover, I did enjoy very much to look at the dark sky through the powerful telescope inside the dome. Don’t miss out the chance to get inside the dome and peer through the telescope. It was spectacular and so amazing. Those close-up images of the universe that you see through their big telescope are something you won’t forget in your lifetime! 😀

Here are photos taken by the photographer, Chris Murphy, Earth & Sky Stargazing Tekapo

group photo stargazing



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Week 48 – Selfie Post-Wedding Photo in Tekapo


Just Married


Selfie (the selfie stick was hidden under the rock)


The dried tree trunk at Tekapo


Lupins at Tekapo

Here are some selfies post-wedding photos taken by my mom’s Iphone 5S at Lake Tekapo, New Zealand. Hope you guys like it! 😀

Week 43 – You Raise Me Up Incredible Boy and Girl Sing

Week 33 – A Thought To Ponder “A Mind At Peace”

Wayne Dyer said, “A mind at peace, a mind centered and not focused on harming others, is stronger than any physical force in the universe.”

Week 31 – Wall Decoration



I’m adding a wood panel behind the flower metal plate. They will be hung on a wall.

Week 11 – Filial Piety Sutra (3/3)

“The Buddha continued, “…I found that some are born with wisdom, but others are dull and ignorant.” He said, “They are disrespectful and unfilial towards their parents. These defiant children are ungrateful as they do not think of the deep kindness of their parents. It is indeed very sad to witness this…” “As you all know, when our mother is carrying the baby for ten months, it is as though she is carrying a heavy burden. She cannot sir or stand at ease, neither can she eat or sleep properly.” “She looks very tired as if she has been sick for a long time. When the baby is due for delivery, the mother must endure very intense pain with blood flowing out profusely.” “In the process of giving birth, she falls unconscious many a time because of the acute pain. It is only after she has gone through innumerable suffering that the child is born. Yet on top of everything, she is still very worried about the safety of the child.” “She will only be at peace when she knows that the child has been born safely. She will always carry him with her wherever she goes.” “She will breast-feed her child until her legs and hands are very tired, yet her heart is very joyful. Moreover, she has to wash the child’s dirty clothing.” “When the child wets the bed, the mother will sleep on the wet spot while she moves the child to a dry and clean position. She does this without any complaints!” “For three years, the child feeds on the mother’s milk which is transformed from her blood. The mother gets so thin and weak by providing the child with nutrients.” “Parents spend lots of time and painstaking effort to nurture their children from the time they are born, through the periods of childhood and youth till adulthood. They instruct their children in the ways of propriety, righteousness and virtuous conduct.” “When the children  become adults, the parents will be busy preparing them for their marriage besides providing them with the necessities and money to establish their careers.” “Parents only hope that the children will quickly settle down and establish their own families and careers. For the sake of their children, they do not mind enduring all hardship!” “Parents will never expect their children to repay their kindness, neither will they mention it!” “If the child were to fall sick, the parents would be so worried that they felt as if their hearts were burnt by fire. Very often, they would also fall sick due to their anxiety over their child.” “It is only when the child becomes healthy again that the parents gradually become less anxious.” “Parents go through all sorts of hardship in nurturing their children and only wish to see them mature into adults. But some children become unfilial when they are grown-up and do not take care of their parent.” “They just ignore their mother’s advice or talk back rudely. They stare angrily at their parents as if they were looking at their enemies.” “It is indeed distressing to witness these unfilial children bullying their elders, hitting and scolding their brothers, with no regard for the family ties or the social etiquette.” “They have attended school but they do not follow the teacher’s instructions. They ignore the advice of their parents and brothers and go against them in defiance.” “These arrogant and impolite children do not greet or bid farewell to their parents when they go in and out of the home.” “They act according to their own decisions without seeking their parents’ advice. As the elders always find excuses to forgive them for being young and ignorant, they are easily let off.” “Later, they become even worse and are terribly ruthless and cruel. Not only do they not listen to advice, they develop a hostile mentality.” “Finally, they leave their relatives and wholesome friends to seek the company of evil people. With time, they also adopt unwholesome habits. They become so deluded that they cannot differentiate the good from the bad and hence bring great harm upon themselves.” “Once they are lured by their bad friends and evil people, they will just abandon their parents and homes to stay in other places.” “Some may make a living by doing business or other jobs there. As the years pass by, they accomplish nothing, but instead become old and sorrowful.” “Some will just settle down and get married there without going home even when they are old. They could not care less about their roots and origins.” “There are some even more unfortunate people who stray away home and make friends with evil people. As they are not cautious enough, they are framed and harmed.” “…or they may consort with evildoers and get involved in outrageous crimes which will eventually land them in jail!” “Some are sentenced to heavy penalty and die in the jail. Others may be afflicted by illness, mishaps and poverty.” “They are in such a sorry plight that people just look down on them and no one takes care of them. Their diseases become beyond cure, they die and rot by the roadside.” “Exposed to the sun and the rain, their corpses decay, leaving the bones in this place away from home. They are then forever separated from relatives and families and let their parents down.” “These unfilial children feel that all is over after their death. They will never realize that their parents have been constantly worrying and thinking about them day and night since they left home!” “Some may pass away in sickness and with resentment! Even if they were to become ghosts they would still be attached deeply to their children and constantly thinking of their children! Mother’s love is indeed very great!” “Some children are slack in their studies. On top of that, they are often in the company of bad friends and follow unorthodox deviant teachings.” “They act like rascals and bully the good. They create havoc wherever they go!” “They drink excessively, gamble and go against the law. Even their brothers get implicated.” “Such conduct brings great misery to their parents. They leave their home early in the morning and loiter outside. By the time they reach home, it is already mid-night.” “They will never greet their parents, or enquire after their well-being. The lonely parents are left feeling that life is empty and meaningless.” “They do not support or take care of their parents. The parents grow old, haggard and feeble, yet they are still burdened by these unfilial children.” “By right, the father or mother who is widowed should receive extra care and attention from their children. But in reality, many children just leave them aside to suffer cold and hunger.” “They do not enquire after the well-being of their parents. The sad parents weep in silence secretly and can only blame themselves for their unfortunate circumstances.” “By right, children should take good care of parents, but, the unfilial children do not bother to take upon themselves this responsibility. Their parents are greatly humiliated and fear being ridiculed by others.” “Very often, we can see a son who works hard so as to support his wife and children. He spares no pains to please his wife!” “Yet he treats his parents coldly like strangers. He always listens to his wife’s advice and will do everything to satisfy her wishes,…” “…while he refuses to listen to the advice of his parents. Sometimes, he will argue with them, totally lacking in respect for the elders. This really hurts the parents’ feelings deeply.” “Some daughters are quite filial before their marriage. But, after that, they become unfilial!” “They become resentful when their parents give them some comments!” “They have deep affection for their husbands and children but become gradually estranged from their parents. This really grieves their parents!” “Some daughters may move to reside in another place with their husbands, away from their homes and parents. They simply forget their parents and do not think of their parents at all.” “They act as if the family ties are severed. Day and night, their parents long for their daughters to come back. They cannot eat and sleep in peace. They are so grief-stricken that it is as though they are being hung upside down.” “Parents are always thinking of their children. The immense kindness of parents is truly vast and boundless.” “Their love is limitless and indescribable! Even if the unfilial children were to repent before a deity, it is still impossible for them yo be free from the negative effects of their unfilial actions.” After listening to the Buddha’s exposition on the deep virtuous kindness of parents, the multitude of virtuous ones were extremely sad. Some prostrated themselves in deep respect! Some were very remorseful and beat their chests! Blood flowed out from their hair pores and they fell unconscious as they were grief-stricken. Later, when they woke up, they all cried loudly, “It is really painful! It is truly sorrowful! Unfilial children really cause so much sorrow for their parents!” “After considering our past conduct, we know how that we have committed heavy negative karma*. Just like the night-travelling spirits, we wander everywhere in total darkness!” “W live like the drunkards or dreamers who are befuddled and cannot think properly for we never realize how deep our wrongdoings are!” “Now upon hearing the Buddha’s teaching, we are like people who have just awakened from a dream. We deeply regret our past misconduct. When we think of our unfilial and inhumane behaviour, we feel as though our internal organs are ablaze!” “May the compassionate World Honoured One have pity on our ignorance. Please grant us a chance to make amends. Please tell us how to repay the deep kindness of our parents!” By using eight analogies to illustrate the wondrous Dharma, the Buddha taught His disciples, “As you wish to know how to repay the deep virtuous kindness of parents, I will explain it to you now!” “If there were a man who, carried his father on his left shoulder and his mother on his right shoulder and circumambulated Mount Sumeru, with his skin being torn and his flesh being cut because of their weight,…” “With his bone marrow being cut through and blood flowing down to his ankles, and he continued to do this throughout hundreds of thousands of kalpas*, and he would endure it without a complaint, yet he would still be unable to repay the deep kindness of his parents.” “If there were a man who, during a famine, had cut off all his flesh and minced it finely to feed his parents,…” “…so that they would not be hungry, after practising such filial piety for hundreds of thousands of kalpas, he would still be unable to repay the deep kindness of his parents.” “If there were a man who, for the sake of his parents, had used a sharp knife to cut out his heat with blood flowing profusely, and he was not afraid of all the suffering…” “…and he continued to do this throughout hundreds of thousands of kalpas, he would still be unable to repay the deep kindness of his parents!” “If there were a man who, for the sake of his parents, had to endure the pain of hundreds of thousands of sharp knives piercing through his body throughout hundreds of thousands of kalpas, he would still be unable to repay the deep kindness of his parents!” “If there were a man who, for the sake of seeking peace of mind and longevity for his parents, had lighted his body as an offering of lights before the Buddha, throughout hundreds of thousands of kalpas, he would still be unable to repay the deep kindness of his parents.” “If there were a man who, for the sake of repaying the kindness of his parents in enduring toils and hardships in bringing him up, had to be boiled and burnt with his bones broken and his marrow extruded, throughout tens of thousands of millions of kalpas, he would still be unable to repay the deep kindness of his parents!” “If there were a man who, for the sake of fulfilling his responsibility as a son, took upon himself the effects of his parents’ negative karmas and had to swallow redhot iron pellets such that his body was burnt and injured badly,…” “…and he continued to do this throughout hundreds of thousands of kalpas, he would still be unable to repay the deep kindness of his parents.” After listening to the Buddha’s exposition on the various deep kindness of parents, everyone was indeed very sad and tearful. They could only cry but could not think of how to repay the deep kindness of parents. They were truly ashamed. Together, they sought the Buddha’s advice, “World Honoured One! We have indeed done wrong, but we still do not know how to repay the deep kindness of parents!” When the Buddha saw that they were genuinely remorseful, He told them, “If you wish to repay the virtuous kindness of your parents…” The Buddha said, “Write out this Sutra; repent all past wrongdoings and make offerings sincerely to the Triple Gem.” The Buddha continued, “Observe the pure precept, practise the wholesome Dharma and generosity. Then, you are a genuine filial child. Otherwise, you are just a hell-being.” The Buddha then continued to tell Venerable Ananda and the rest, “People who are unfilial will definitely fall into the Great Avici Hell when they die.” “The length and width of this hell are eighty thousand yojanas*. It is surrounded by iron walls and covered with iron netting so that the hell-beings cannot escape.” “The whole hell is ablaze, with thunder roars and bright bolts of lightning which set things aflame. Molten brass and iron fluids are poured onto the hell-beings’ bodies. Brass dogs and iron snakes chase after the hell-beings and devour them.” “The suffering is acute and unbearable as everyone is burnt to ashes. Moreover, there are countless hooks and sharp spears in the air…” “The ground is covered with axes, hammers, spears, hills of knives, trees of swords and other instruments of torture.” “At any time, they will aim accurately at the hell-beings so that the hell-beings will be chopped, hacked or stabbed to death.There is no end to such countless acute sufferings for the hell-beings.” “After they have undergone such punishment, they will then be sent to other hells. They have to endure the torture of their bodies being rolled over by iron wheels.” “The wheels travel to and fro until their guts are ruptured, their bones are broken, their skins are torn and their flesh is squashed. Within a day, they have to endure suffering akin to dying ten million times.” “These hell-beings have to endure such torture and acute sufferings because in their previous lives, they have committed the grave offences of being unfilial and rebellious!” After listening to the Buddha’s exposition, everyone was very ashamed and remorseful. They cried sorrowfully and implored the Buddha, “What must we do to repay the deep kindness of parents?” The Buddha answered, “If you wish to repay the virtuous kindness of your parents, the best way is to print this Sutra and circulate it widely. If you can make a contribution to print one copy, you will obtain the merits and virtues to see a Buddha.” “If you can print ten copies, you will be able to see ten Buddhas. If you can print a hundred, a thousand or ten thousand copies, you will get to see a hundred, a thousand or ten thousand Buddhas.” “The Buddhas will always protect those who have made contributions to print Sutra for the benefit of sentient beings. By the power of the Buddhas, the donors and their parents will be born in the heavens and will never fall into hells to undergo sufferings.” After listening to the Buddha’s teaching, Venerable Ananda and the multitude, including the Heavenly Dragons and the Eight-fold Division, the Wheel-turning kings and others were very sorrowful. They were ashamed of themselves. They repented sincerely before the Buddha, “From now onwards until the infinite future, throughout ten million kalpas,…” “…we would rather have our bodies crushed into fine dust than go against the Sagely Teaching of the Thus Come One. We would firmly uphold the Teaching.” “We would rather have our tongues plucked out and ploughed with an iron plough so that the blood would flow out profusely like a river…” “…and we vow that even after hundreds of thousands of kalpas, we would not go against the Buddhas’ Teaching. We would rather travel to and fro among bladed wheels,…” “…and be stabbed by the knives so that both the flesh and bones are all pierced through and we would still not go against the Buddha’s Teaching. Even if our bodies were tightly wrapped with iron netting and the pain was unbearable,…” “…after hundreds of thousands of kalpas, we would still not go against the Buddha’s Teaching. We would rather have our bodies minced to a sauce by knives,…” “…with the skin, flesh, veins and bones all mixed up and indistinguishable, throughout hundreds of thousands of kalpas, we would never go against the Buddha’s Teaching!” Venerable Ananda arose calmly from his seat. He asked the Buddha respectfully, “World Honoured One! What is the name of this Sutra? Please tell us so that we can abide, uphold and practise it accordingly.” The Buddha told the assembly, “This Sutra is known as ‘The Buddha’s Teaching On The Difficulty In Repaying The Deep Kindness of Parents.‘ May all of you abide by the teaching, uphold it and practise it accordingly.” At that time, after listening to the Buddha’s exposition, Ananda and all the disciples, the heavenly dragons, the Eight-fold Division and others were very joyful as they clearly understood the practice. Everyone resolved to abide by t he Buddha’s Teaching forever. They would always uphold the practice of filial piety as their duty. After that, they made obeisance to the Buddha and then withdrew. Glossary: Kalpa: a very long period of time that cannot be measured in terms of days, months or years. Karma: intentional action, that is, a deed done deliberately through body, speech or mind. Yojana: a unit of mileage in India. There are four definitions of the yojana as representing 15 km, 20 km and 30 km respectively. The most commom definition is the definition of one yojana as 20 km. You can download the apps “IDharmaBook” to get the ebook in Itunes: Book Title: The Buddha’s Teaching On The Difficulty In Repaying The Deep Kindness of Parents (Filial Piety Sutra) Published by: Kong Meng San Phor Kark See Monastery, Awaken Publishing & Design

Week 7 – A Journey To The Past (7/7)

This is the final part of the past life regression that I had experienced under hypnosis:

The End
The time has been moved forward.
Now, the war is over. Everywhere is destroyed and there are dead bodies on the street. I’m not sure whether I’m still alive or not…I am now in spirit form. I come to the front of the shop where the old man used to be here. He isn’t here! Then, I sit on the ground watching the movement of the clouds in the sky. I ask myself why all this happen and why there is a war. I don’t know the answers…

In spirit form, I found the old man! …
(I shift to third-person perspective)
The old man comes to take me to go into the light with him. (I don’t want to leave the physical world now, I linger around and after a few seconds I come closer to the old man). He holds my hand and takes me into the light. We are surrounded by clouds. The old man looks joyful. He wears a clean and smart looking striped man suit. As we are moving forward I see myself (Lucy, the little girl) is gradually changing from long brown curly hair into black straight hair. I become an Asian little girl. The session ends when we arrive at the gate.


Previous post:
Part 1 – Maid
Part 2 – A Black Classic Car
Part 3 – A Newspaper Delivery Boy (Paperboy)
Part 4 – A Shoe Repairman (An Old Man)
Part 5 – A Woman Who Claims That She Is My Mother
Part 6 – The City (The War Is Coming Soon)

I’d like to say thank you to Dr. Teoh for the wonderful experience and for his love and kindness that have guided me through the session. It is an amazing experience that I won’t forget. 🙂

Week 6 – A Journey To The Past (6/7)

In my previous blog posts, I talked about what I witnessed in my past-life-regression, in which I saw myself as a little girl who dressed like a maid with a white apron in a mansion. I left the mansion and then I met a paperboy next to the fountain. I played with him for a while and then when he left, I followed him to the marketplace. After that, I met someone who was my friend in my past live, and in this life, the same man (same soul different body) appeared in my life and came to helped me when I got lost on the street when I was a little. Also, I met my mother…

The City (The War Is Coming Soon)
After that, I have a desire to go out to the city. It is full of curiosity out there. However, maids are not allowed to go out of the house, unless to buy goods in the city…

I walk pass the entrance gate of the house…to the paved road (the bridge)…and then I arrive to the city. It is hazy and everywhere looks so blue and grey. I witness a group of military units. Oh my God! The country is preparing for war! I feel unsecured at that moment. I turn around and want to go back to the house immediately. The war is coming soon and I need to tell the old man…

I come to the old man and tell him that the war is coming. The old man says that he already knows about it. I ask him why this is happening, and he doesn’t know the answer. In a sudden, on my left, I see military jeeps passing by. There is a flag put at the rear of the jeeps. It is a flag with a red circle in the middle on a white background with red rays extending outward from the red circle. Then I look at the sky, I see sort of hot air balloon (observation balloon) with people inside a basket. There is a number printed on the balloon but I can’t see it clearly… I’m so scared! … It is the Second World War!


(to be continued)

Previous post:
Part 1 – Maid
Part 2 – A Black Classic Car
Part 3 – A Newspaper Delivery Boy (Paperboy)
Part 4 – A Shoe Repairman (An Old Man)
Part 5 – A Woman Who Claims That She Is My Mother

Week 5 – A Journey To The Past (5/7)

In my previous blog posts, I talked about what I witnessed in my past-life-regression, in which I saw myself as a little girl who dressed like a maid with a white apron in a mansion. I left the mansion and then I met a paperboy next to the fountain. I played with him for a while and then when he left, I followed him to the marketplace. After that, I met someone who was the same man (same soul) that I met in this life when I was a child…

Here, my story continues:

A Woman Who Claims That She Is My Mother
I want to go back to the big house. I send love to the old man, and say goodbye to him. I know that I will see him tomorrow. Now, I am in the bedroom of the big house. I am sitting on a chair in front of the window. From the small window I can only see clouds moving in the sky because the window is located above my eye level. I am just sitting here and doing nothing. I don’t like to work and I like to stay in the bedroom an entire day to avoid working. Once I step out of my bedroom I need to work. (I have a feeling that I work in the kitchen). No one in the house talks to me. I feel so alone and abandoned…

I’m with my teddy bear, lying on my bed, relaxing…

(long pause)

I get out of my bedroom and walk down the stairs. I come to a big open kitchen where I see many maids are working hardly. They are preparing food and cooking. I see one of the maids is wearing a dark green dress with a full-length apron over the dress. Next to the kitchen, there is a dining table where it is seated a bald man with a pair of round big eyes. He looks angry. I have no idea who he is…

I am back to my bedroom lying on my bed again… I see a woman standing next to my bed watching me. I don’t know who she is. She is wearing the same thing as the maids wear. So, I guess she is a maid too. She is telling me that she is my mother. I don’t believe her and I think silently that she can’t be my mother! I have no mother and father! I don’t know why I’m here and why I’m being left here. In this moment, I know what my name is – it is Lucy… The woman keeps telling me that she is my mother but I don’t believe her… Everyone in the house is a liar! I trust no one…except the old man … and the boy…

All of a sudden, the door opens, and the boy (the paperboy) brings a man in (a man with a dark suit) to my bedroom… Now, they are all standing next to my bed watching me…

…I bring that woman in a black dress (she looks like the woman with a parasol who I saw on the paved road) to the old man (the shoe repairman). As we are in front of the old man, the woman disappeared. The old man gives me some coins for me to buy food that I like. I am so happy to receive the coins… I walk away from him…

I am in my bedroom again. I am Cristina (current life) at the moment, facing opposite to Lucy (my previous life). I shift to first-person perspective as Cristina. At the suggestion of Dr. Teoh, I approach the little girl Lucy to send her love and help. Lucy refuses to accept any help from me. She pushes me away and she doesn’t want anyone to help her. She thinks that her life is a misery. For this reason, she wants Cristina, her future self, to be misery as well… She says she doesn’t know me at all and she wants me to go away.

With guide, Lucy feels that she is protected by white light. Now, I shift back to first-person perspective as Lucy, and Cristina is not here anymore. When I’m within the light, I suddenly receive information about Einstein. Everybody is talking about Einstein at that moment. He is famous and his photograph has been published on the newspapers… After awhile, I concentrate on Lucy again… I feel so safe in the light… I start to become mindly opened … and free of mistrusting people from the house… Now, many people are right in front of me, including the woman who claims to be my mother…

The maids tell me that she (the woman) is my mother! I get so emotional … and tears begin to flow unstoppably out of my eyes… Yes! … That’s right! She is my mother! I know it all now! She was weak and she was dead after giving birth to me. That is why I’m being left here in this big house. It wasn’t her choice to leave me and it wasn’t her fault!

I can’t stop crying… I know that she loved me so much! … Moreover … I recognize that she is the same mother in my current life!

The maids knew everything… They knew why I was here and who my parents were. They just didn’t want to tell me because they were afraid that I could get hurt to know the truth… They are not liar as I thought they were … They just wanted to protect me… All the maids, my mother and I are now all in the backyard. I visualize my mother goes into the light with joy and love… She is protected by light and I’m protected by white light as well… Everyone is watching her floating up to the sky, leaving us. My mother loves me so much. As she floats higher and higher, I pass my teddy bear to her to express that I love her…


(to be continued)

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Part 1 – Maid
Part 2 – A Black Classic Car
Part 3 – A Newspaper Delivery Boy (Paperboy)
Part 4 – A Shoe Repairman (An Old Man)

Week 4 – A Journey To The Past (4/7)

In my previous blog posts, I talked about what I witnessed in my past-life-regression, in which I saw myself as a little girl who dressed like a maid with a white apron in a mansion. I left the mansion and saw a black classic car passing by, and then I met a paperboy. I followed him to the marketplace. On the way I saw a woman and a shoe repairman…

Here, my story continues:

A Shoe Repairman (An Old Man)
All of a sudden, I recognize this old man!! “Oh my God! It’s him!” I cry emotionally at the moment I know who he is. He is the shoe repairman, who had helped me when I was lost on the street when my father went into a store in my current life (this was happening in my current life, when I was 4 or 6 years old). He sent me to the police department and then got my parents to take me back home.

I get so emotional and I can’t stop crying. I can’t believe that he is the same shoe repairman who I’ve met both in my previous and current life. Although he looks so different but I know that is him! He is an old man and has got white hair and a pairs of big round eyes (previous life), and he was a middle-aged man with black hair in my current life (when I was at the age of 4 or 6)…

When I stop crying I learn that the old man is very lonely and sad because he has separated from his family. When I know more about him, I start to know a little bit about myself. I have got no parents and being left to somebody else in the mansion. I am so alone and feeling abandoned! The old man has got children, but his children left him as they grow up. He is also sad and feeling alone. I am his friend. Every time I come to buy goods in the city I would stop by and would spend some time talking with him. He likes people to listen to him, and I am a good listener. I say thank you to the old man for helping me when I was lost. I send him my love and gratitude. I am so grateful to him for being in my lives… (I can hardly express all my feeling in words. All I can say it is that the feeling is so magical and spiritual.)



(to be continued)

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Part 1 – Maid
Part 2 – A Black Classic Car
Part 3 – A Newspaper Delivery Boy (Paperboy)

Week 3 – A Journey To The Past (3/7)

In my previous blog posts, I talked about what I witnessed in my past life regression, in which I saw myself as a little girl who dressed like a maid with a white apron. I followed the pathway to the entrance gate of the house I was in, and then I saw a black classic car passing by.

Here, my story continues:

A Newspaper Delivery Boy (Paperboy)
At the fountain, I meet a boy (same age as me, 7 or 8). He is wearing a brown colored blouse and a waistcoat (also brown color) over the blouse. In his head, he is wearing a brown colored checkered pattern tweed flat cap. He looks very pretty and friendly. He has freckles on his cheeks and his skin color is white. He is standing in front of me. After a while, he is playing with me at the fountain. I don’t know who he is. I look at his foot then I see a pair of black leather shoes he is wearing is worn out. He has got many newspapers in his arm. He is a newspaper delivery boy…

He has to leave. He turns around and is walking in the direction to the city. Behind him, there is a short hair black and white dog of medium size following him on the road. The dog stares at me with a pair of red eyes, which makes me very scary. I decide to follow the boy to see where he is going. The boy doesn’t know that he is being followed but the dog knows that I’m following them. I come to a grey flat paved road or a bridge (for both pedestrian and automobile). When I look down to the right side, I see that underneath the paved road (or the bridge) it is a one-way traffic lane (5 to 8 lane traffic) with many cars traveling from one destination to another. As I continue to walk, I see a woman in a long black dress walking in my opposite direction. She is holding a white (ivory) colored parasol with lace and a long handle. I don’t know who she is. She passes me by…

I keep stalking the boy at a far distance. I walk pass the paved road (or the bridge) and now I come to a store with green small grids and small glasses. I stop stalking the boy because in front of me it is an old man with white hair sitting in front of the store. He is a shoe repairman.



(to be continued)

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Part 1 – Maid
Part 2 – A Black Classic Car

Week 1 – A Journey To The Past (1/7)

Out of curiosity, I went through a past life regression experience, with a safe and trustworthy Master Hypnotist, Dr. Teoh, who is a certified member of The Newton Institute, Certified International Instructor, Hypnotherapist, LBL Spiritual Regression Hypnotherapist, Master Practitioner of NLP & Time Line Therapy.

I consider this is one of the most exciting alternative travel experiences that I’ve ever had!
Was it real memory from the past? Or was it simply fantasy or false memory? I don’t know. There’s so much out there beyond the grasp of our understanding. You may like to decide it by yourself after reading it. 🙂

At Kuala Lumpur, some day on August 2008.

This is what I witnessed under hypnosis:

My First Experience of a Past-Life Regression

…100, 99, 98, 97, 96…88…82…
…I see myself walking down the stairs. When I reach to the bottom of the stairs, there is a door (it is opened and it is so bright) just in front of me. In my left arm, I’m holding a light brown color teddy bear with a heart shape on its stomach. I look at my foot and I see I am wearing a pairs of black leather shoes and a pairs of white socks. Then I look at my body I am wearing a brown colored dress with flower pattern and with lace at the bottom, and a white pinafore over my dress. Then, I use a third-person perspective looking at myself and I see I have got long curly brown hair with a red ribbon on my hair, round cheeks and I have got so many freckles on my face. I’m just a little girl aged 7 or 8 and my skin color is white. I slowly walk through the door and on the far left side, I see people (2, 3 or 4 female) preparing food or serving meal on one of the rectangular shape table (there are two wood tables parallel to each other) in a backyard of a big house. Right now I’m just standing here on the ground and scared to make any movement. The ground is covered with green grass; no flowers in the backyard. When I am encouraged by the hypnotherapist to walk around, I walk closer to the ladies and now they are standing here in front of me and looking at me (shift to first-person perspective). The one on the left is a fat old woman who is wearing a black colored dress with a white full-length apron and a white hat. The image I see is so clear and vivid. She has freckles on her cheeks, many wrinkles on her forehead and on her face as well. She looks very unfriendly and she is talking (to me?). I can’t hear anything at all except the warm voice of Dr. Teoh (the hypnotherapist). The other one on the right looks a lot younger, taller and nicer than the first woman, and she is wearing a brown colored dress also with a white full-length apron and a white hat. She also has freckles on her face. Both of them are maids, and all of a sudden, I think that I am also a maid because I dress like them…



(to be continued)